The last time that I posted was one year ago from tomorrow. Now that is a TOTAl coincidence. I have felt the urge/need to journal lately and so on this quiet thursday night I tried to remember what the web address of this blog was. Turns out it is the easiest, most practical, and obvious web address. Its just my name... but somehow i didn't remember that and so I have been googling myself for the past twenty minutes- Can we talk about that for a minute?? The amount of information I found on myself by just typing in my name is SCARY. I need to make my accounts private. srsly.

Anyways onto the point of me writing this post. WHY IS JOURNALING SO FRIGGIN HARD?? Its not hard at all and that is what is so hard about it.... ya know? I cannot even tell you how many journals I have with 1-10 pages filled in and the beginning of almost every one is "OMG sorry its been so long since I last wrote!" actually none of them say OMG, but still...... I NEED TO OVERCOME THIS! I really like writing. Its fun and helps you to get a lot of your thoughts organized. So I am not going to say that I am going to be consistent because the second I say that you can just count on hearing from me NEXT November.


Fast forward to June and here I am finishing this post. A lot has happened since November. The biggest news is that I am pregnant. The thought of having a child really makes you want to finally, after 26 years, get my life in order and actually start doing all the things you have wanted to do. For example, I need to get in the habit of writing stuff down so that my kid knows the funny things he/she did and what I was feeling at those times. I also feel pressure to start quilting?? but I think I am just putting that pressure of myself? I want my marriage to be stronger, I want my dogs to be perfectly trained, I want to loose 10 pounds while gaining 10 pounds.. what? I wish I would have gotten my masters degree already. I want to be better at saving money. I should read some parenting books even though I don't really WANT to do that. I want to be BETTER- I want to be good down to the bone and exude light and knowledge. I want to be a good mother.