The last time that I posted was one year ago from tomorrow. Now that is a TOTAl coincidence. I have felt the urge/need to journal lately and so on this quiet thursday night I tried to remember what the web address of this blog was. Turns out it is the easiest, most practical, and obvious web address. Its just my name... but somehow i didn't remember that and so I have been googling myself for the past twenty minutes- Can we talk about that for a minute?? The amount of information I found on myself by just typing in my name is SCARY. I need to make my accounts private. srsly.
Anyways onto the point of me writing this post. WHY IS JOURNALING SO FRIGGIN HARD?? Its not hard at all and that is what is so hard about it.... ya know? I cannot even tell you how many journals I have with 1-10 pages filled in and the beginning of almost every one is "OMG sorry its been so long since I last wrote!" actually none of them say OMG, but still...... I NEED TO OVERCOME THIS! I really like writing. Its fun and helps you to get a lot of your thoughts organized. So I am not going to say that I am going to be consistent because the second I say that you can just count on hearing from me NEXT November.
Fast forward to June and here I am finishing this post. A lot has happened since November. The biggest news is that I am pregnant. The thought of having a child really makes you want to finally, after 26 years, get my life in order and actually start doing all the things you have wanted to do. For example, I need to get in the habit of writing stuff down so that my kid knows the funny things he/she did and what I was feeling at those times. I also feel pressure to start quilting?? but I think I am just putting that pressure of myself? I want my marriage to be stronger, I want my dogs to be perfectly trained, I want to loose 10 pounds while gaining 10 pounds.. what? I wish I would have gotten my masters degree already. I want to be better at saving money. I should read some parenting books even though I don't really WANT to do that. I want to be BETTER- I want to be good down to the bone and exude light and knowledge. I want to be a good mother.
Monday, June 8, 2015
Thursday, November 14, 2013
the better breed
dear journal,
So you know Kiwi, our dog... well her and I are strangely alike while our other dog, Mango, is very similar to Ricky. Can it be?? Let me tell you how I am similar to Kiwi and Mango to Ricky.
Kiwi and I are...
Reckless- she bumps into things ALL THE TIME. like with her head or legs. she just goes for things full force not thinking before hand that it may cause an injury (to her credit she is a dog... she typically doesn't analyze risk). however ido should analyze risk but often times do not. i am always hurting myself and knocking things over. It is like the running joke in our house of how many times I accidentally knock over Ricky's bikes. (granted we do have THREE bikes in our very small apartment, but still) cuts, scars, bruises, we've both got em. Kiwi has permanent fur loss all over her legs. Where fur once was now is scars.
Impatient- kiwi CANNOT wait more than ten seconds for you to throw her the ball. she will start doing this really high pitched yelping and if that doesn't work she will jump into your face with her face. (see comments above) her nose slamming into yours hurts.. bad. when we are driving to the park she puts her head between the drivers seat and the drivers window. her wet nose touching your ear and leaving marks on your window, all while yelping out of pure excitement. Me, too, have little to no patience. something i really need to work on...........but in the meantime. it is another quality kiwi and i both share.
We don't enjoy our food- i have this problem where i race myself eating my food. like if i have a pack of mentos i wont enjoy any of them until the last one. its like i have to get it done and check it off my list (we will talk about check lists later- big passion of mine) i frustrate myself every time because i usually end up eating TWO packages of mentos, focusing on enjoying them the second package. weird. kiwi is the same she DOWNS food so fast. doesn't even taste it i don't think. with that said lets segway into mango. she eats her food slow and carefully. watching her eat a piece of beef jerky really is the cutest thing. she like nibbles it and you can totally tell that she is enjoying every bite.
ricky is the same. i remember when we were in thailand and we went to this really nice seashore restaurant. he ordered salmon (i don't even remember what i got because it came and went so fast into my mouth) but i remember ricky eating it really slow and smelling the sauce. when he took a bite he looked into the distance and then slowly started shaking his head. a shake of approval. i wish i did that. i wish i was patient enough to taste every spice and flavor in my mouth. its a gift. one i am going to accrue.
mango likes to do her own thing. she will just keep to herself and play in the backyard alone. ricky sometimes tells her to go play by herself and she will. she loves mango time. kiwi has to be entertained and wants your attention. ALL of your attention. if you put laundry on the bed to fold she will lay right on top of it. the other day i was assembling a shelf and she came and laid next to me and put her paw on my hand as to say.. "stop... i don't like the attention and time this shelf is taking away from me." Yesterday she laid ON MY OPEN LAPTOP! i was on the bed doing homework, ehh more like ATTEMPTING to do homework, when kiwi jumps on the bed and plops down in front of me and on the computer while making her hilarious horse sounding sigh. haha! whenever i go to the bathroom she always follows me and wants to be in there with me. Ask me the last time i went to the bathroom alone. just kidding dont ask me that. Sometimes (most the time) i want ricky to entertain me or let me entertain him. i like to talk about EVERYTHING that goes through my mind. he likes to think and ponder to himself and just have ricky time. casey times does NOT last long. ever. another thing i should work on.
ricky and mango are both patient. very patient.
kiwi and i are both VERY sensitive.
mango does not like to snuggle except on certain occasions or when she is really feeling it. same thing with ricky rick. kiwi and i however are more comfortable clinging to anything with a pulse.
mango cries a lot andso does ricky
mango and ricky= brown
there are a million more, but i think basically what i am trying to say is... ricky is the better breed. so if you are looking for a great dog. get a ricky dog.
So you know Kiwi, our dog... well her and I are strangely alike while our other dog, Mango, is very similar to Ricky. Can it be?? Let me tell you how I am similar to Kiwi and Mango to Ricky.
Kiwi and I are...
Reckless- she bumps into things ALL THE TIME. like with her head or legs. she just goes for things full force not thinking before hand that it may cause an injury (to her credit she is a dog... she typically doesn't analyze risk). however i
Impatient- kiwi CANNOT wait more than ten seconds for you to throw her the ball. she will start doing this really high pitched yelping and if that doesn't work she will jump into your face with her face. (see comments above) her nose slamming into yours hurts.. bad. when we are driving to the park she puts her head between the drivers seat and the drivers window. her wet nose touching your ear and leaving marks on your window, all while yelping out of pure excitement. Me, too, have little to no patience. something i really need to work on...........but in the meantime. it is another quality kiwi and i both share.
We don't enjoy our food- i have this problem where i race myself eating my food. like if i have a pack of mentos i wont enjoy any of them until the last one. its like i have to get it done and check it off my list (we will talk about check lists later- big passion of mine) i frustrate myself every time because i usually end up eating TWO packages of mentos, focusing on enjoying them the second package. weird. kiwi is the same she DOWNS food so fast. doesn't even taste it i don't think. with that said lets segway into mango. she eats her food slow and carefully. watching her eat a piece of beef jerky really is the cutest thing. she like nibbles it and you can totally tell that she is enjoying every bite.
ricky is the same. i remember when we were in thailand and we went to this really nice seashore restaurant. he ordered salmon (i don't even remember what i got because it came and went so fast into my mouth) but i remember ricky eating it really slow and smelling the sauce. when he took a bite he looked into the distance and then slowly started shaking his head. a shake of approval. i wish i did that. i wish i was patient enough to taste every spice and flavor in my mouth. its a gift. one i am going to accrue.
mango likes to do her own thing. she will just keep to herself and play in the backyard alone. ricky sometimes tells her to go play by herself and she will. she loves mango time. kiwi has to be entertained and wants your attention. ALL of your attention. if you put laundry on the bed to fold she will lay right on top of it. the other day i was assembling a shelf and she came and laid next to me and put her paw on my hand as to say.. "stop... i don't like the attention and time this shelf is taking away from me." Yesterday she laid ON MY OPEN LAPTOP! i was on the bed doing homework, ehh more like ATTEMPTING to do homework, when kiwi jumps on the bed and plops down in front of me and on the computer while making her hilarious horse sounding sigh. haha! whenever i go to the bathroom she always follows me and wants to be in there with me. Ask me the last time i went to the bathroom alone. just kidding dont ask me that. Sometimes (most the time) i want ricky to entertain me or let me entertain him. i like to talk about EVERYTHING that goes through my mind. he likes to think and ponder to himself and just have ricky time. casey times does NOT last long. ever. another thing i should work on.
ricky and mango are both patient. very patient.
kiwi and i are both VERY sensitive.
mango does not like to snuggle except on certain occasions or when she is really feeling it. same thing with ricky rick. kiwi and i however are more comfortable clinging to anything with a pulse.
mango cries a lot and
mango and ricky= brown
there are a million more, but i think basically what i am trying to say is... ricky is the better breed. so if you are looking for a great dog. get a ricky dog.
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